Inside Out - The Game Of Emotions

 Hi, Just me again! Two days running who'd have thought it.

So, I bought a game to use with my younger clients to look at the different emotions that we might experience. I decided to use my own kids as guineapigs. What it did tell me is that we are a very angry family because that was the main emotion expressed the whole time that we played. 

What playing that game did make me reflect on though was the amount of different feelings and emotions that I was experiencing on starting out on my own, trying to build a client base. Firstly, I felt excited. I have spent a lot of time learning and this was my ultimate goal. I want to succeed. But then there was the feeling of guilt. Even before qualifying as a Counsellor I was given a great opportunity by two lovely ladies who gave me the chance to work alongside them. One of which I still work with today. I felt guilty that I wanted to try doing this myself.

This moved on to feelings of anxiety. I've always been a worrier, I might even say I worry if I'm not worried. But I felt anxious for a million reasons, firstly the anxiety of telling my boss that I was going private. Which after telling her was a complete waste of time worrying about.

Then there were all the "what ifs?". What if I don't get any clients? What if I'm not a good enough counsellor? What if no-one follows me on Facebook? The anxiety of trying to sell myself and the embarrassment that I might fall flat on my face and fail. 

All of these "what ifs?". "So, what?", that's what I might say to clients when they ask the same questions. So, I've came to the conclusion, I can't really control any of this. What will be will be and at least I can say I've tried.

So there you go, playing a board game has made me reflect on the different feelings that I have experienced. Like I said in my 1st post, I've
made myself vulnerable and by doing so I hope you would feel able to make yourself vulnerable too. It takes courage.